Missing You

I miss you alot~!

Damn!What the heck is happening to me recently?I can not sleep though is 3 in the morning!3 in the morning!!!Feel so terrible and keep thinking of the *special someone*...I miss you alot~

The good news from the doctor is,I am not having Goitre.But still,have to eat alot of FishyS.Yuks,I hate the smell of fish la except for fish and chips,fish finger and fish fillet because they have no more heavy smell.

G.O.I.T.R.E

I suppose most of the people know what is GOITRE.Don't cha?It is a kind of disease caused by lack of protein.Unfortunately,I might get it because people around me keep on observing my neck.They found out that it is bigger than usual.So what to do?Went to clinic and did some check out.Guess what?I need some blood test even!Shoot!It was nothing as first but when the blood being suck up,it sucks!So damn painful ar!Sobxx='(
I wish nothing happen to me because if so,I would probally need alot of medicines.i hate it so hope the result will be right as I hoped.
Other thing is,I moved to Blogger Beta but why I can remain my template?So weird.Others I saw them changed.Anyway,going to a movie as primary school classmates reunion.Haha.Funny.Very funny because I got to see some old classmates.I wonder would the boys become more handsome?LOL

Life of 4 and a half day without PC

Well,nothing much to do during this holiday.My plan was,play Maple Story whole day long BUT the stupid thunder go hit the streamyx thing around my housing area then I asked my dad to call Streamyx company but he go call the computer repairman.Fine,he come and bring back my computer and reformat everything!I hate reformat the most!Everything will be gone when he send back my CPU.So,I watch the korean drama I bought on Friday.The second day,he said my modem have a problem and need to go and claime.So have to wait another day.So,equals to 4 and a half day I did not touch my computer.I broke my record anyway.Just got back my CPU last nigth and the first thing I did was,up my assasin level in Maple Story.Felt much more better with the 31 level assasin.Hehe

Bloody Friday

This afternoon at school was so damn fucking hell!At first,was feeling so damn dissapointed because I was late to school to catch up somebody.Second thing,I forced myself to drink a cup of Milky Frappucino drink then a can of Green Tea.After that,I felt so uncomfortable...
Third thing is,I bought a korean drama then suddenly those stupid prefects said got spot-check.Damn,thank God they did not found mine but they found one of my classmate ones.She was so damn unfortunate.I absolutely not hers la duh.Imagine a 14 years old girl bring blue film to school.What the heck?!Stupid X.I bet not only her,you would probally made a lot of peoples hate you because of this spot-check.Just wait and see.
Then,then what?stupid form teacher keep scolding me and asked me to do this and that during the last period.Sigh,so little people went to school this afternoon because most of them knew that it will be very boring.yea,it was VERY.If I know today will end up like this,better go for the public duty at Petra Jaya>.<

Fire Works

Went to Kuching Fest to watch some fire works with my family.This kind of out going,I really hate it.Why?

1. You can not talk and walk along with your friends when you meet them there
2. You can not pay attention to see on some stuff you really like

Sighz,that is why I looked so damn bad mood when I came back.I was looking at some stupid thing inside the little house which sell a lot of crappy things like air-conditioners,plasma TV,massager stuff and blahs,someone suddenly touched my back.At first I thought it was one of the salesman or saleswomen cause so much people inside there but when I looked back,it's Geraldine,Deborah's[my foster sister]sister.I was so happy and too bad I can only see Deb from a far look.She saw me anyway but did not talked to her.

It is a very big point.Why did not I go and greet her?Because my parents are walking so fast in front!Damn it.

Then,when we go to the back,I saw some string dolls and pleaded my mother to buy it but guess what?The stupid fire works suddenly starts and my parents went to the front there to watch it...I wanted that string doll a lot!and it cost only RM15.90-RM19.90!It is so damn hard to find suchh nice price ok?I still have not cold down that is why I try to shout it out loud here.Hope it works=)

Is this string doll featuring Harry Potter?Haha

This is the one I saw.Looks like HOT Johnny Depp.Captain Jack Sparrow

This is cute little Dr.Frankenstein

Cool!I absolutely LOVE this one.So PUNK!

Look at mine...It's already torn off and I even go buy SUPER GLUE to glue it!

Chinese New Year ones are much more nicer and more than this stupid ones.Really.

:(

On 11th August 2006,I can swear that this is one of my saddest day in my life.
When I was finish buying Hot Cup from the canteen,suddenly I saw X.She come towards me and I can not imagine that she pushed my right shoulder.I thought she was kidding but when I asked her what is the matter and she asked:"What did you said to Y?!You tell Y that Z liked me is it?!"
Gosh,I admit I am very busy body person but I swear I did not tell anyone about that because it was untrue!Then I rushed to find Y and what the fuck!She got the wrong information about who the heck Z really likes.And when I asked Y to come with me so settle all the missunderstnading about these,both X and Y just acted like nothing happened.Hey guys,don't you people feel that something is missing?An APOLOGISE.Sincerely...
Darn,got so sensitive everytime I got misunderstanding by people but they never apologise.WHY?!

p/s:people out there,always make clear of something before you make a decision!

Green Road Malam Kebudayaan Thiong Hua

Hehe,I found some Malam Budaya Thiong Hua's photos at here
.Cause 'mummy']
can't burn to me before holiday and I can not wait that long anymore so go grab them form there.Erm,the photos were not complete so just briefly describe that night.
First was a opening speech by Pn.Madelene Dago then a form 5 guy from Chinese Orchestra solo Yang Ching.
Then,a from 6 girl named Ng Chien Chien solo a song which I don't know what it called.After that was Wushu.

Ng Chien Chien



Wushu
The nightmare begins when the Wushu finished.It was Crazy Frog![Mr. Peter Hu Kie Nguon] turn's to sing.He sang the old chinese song which QUITE OK,except for his actions.It sucks!

The old fashioned post...
Then,proudly present our school form 6 Choir club.They were weird because the first song was only "du,du,du......" then the second song was "Hong Se Qing Ting"[red dragonfly].Too bad we can not see the real choir singer because they were standing behind and they did not imagine that the stage would be so tall that they can not be seen from the front.

Choir rocks!
Wow,it's time for our school young singer which can sing very sharp---Ting Hui Ching to sing.Do not know the name of the song ar.So boring.Then is The Evergreen Olive dance by a few from 5 girls in 5i including Fanny Kho,Kong Ying Ying,Phylis Chou,Voon Oui Tche and Jerusha Yong.



Solo singing by a girl named Lya Insyirah.Then some acting entittled The Story of Qu Yuan.Both was B.O.R.I.N.G!!!So,did not pay much attetion,only sms mummy.But there is a funny part which one of the actor suddenly said:"Shit!" when his microphone can not function well but the moment he said it then it works so everyone heard it.After it was The Alisan dance by the form 2 girls including Shuen Lii,Cat,Shirlyn,Elaine,Sin Kiat and Michelle.





Alisan dance
After that was a poem about Chang Er.Do not ask me what the heck is it about the whole story.I do not know la.I only know the guy n girl love each other then bla bla bla la.But the ending very nice.They hugged together and the main point about the story is,if two peoples really truly love each other,they will be together no matter what.





It was very touching.I mean the background song.Endless Love~
Then the ending was full of songs and dance.There were Tarian Rentak Serumpun by Kumpulan Lenggang Kenyalang,solo singing by Lya Insyirah AGAIN,Woosa Woosa dance and Solo singing by Ting Hui Ching.I truly hate this song because she sing the stupid Heehe haaha song.Stupid!



Tarian Rentak Serumpun by Kumpulan Lenggang Kenyalang
Finally,the Chinese Orchestra's time to perform.They perform a few song which I do not even know the names.




-The End-

Terrifying Mystery about H.Y.S.T.E.R.IA

Life"Aiti,you know about the girl who got hysteria or not?"
"Neh,she go and crash 4 pieces of window glass with her hand as if doing Karate arh!"
"You heard the glass crashed sound yesterday?"
"Have you heard about it?"
All this phrases are the first thing I heard when I entered my tuiton class this morning.The few form3s in my class keep on gossiping about this Malay girl got hysteria yesterday evening at SCHOOL!
Can you imagine how terrifying it is?Smash the window glasses,running around balcony and screaming and yelling and sort of lose control.Sighz,at first I was not in this thinggy but when I got to school,they told me all sort of things about the same case,then I started to believe.Most of the people witnessed it.Hmm,one thing I wondered after listened to my tuiton teacher's experienced.She said that when she was young,she went to some sort of camp in the jungle and during midnight,two Malay girls who wearing tudung were hysteria-ED too.Oh my Godness,why is it the same religion of people?My teacher explain that maybe it's because they were not as holy as others do but they had to wear their tudung,always.And maybe they are too preassure with this.I dont know la but I did mean anything to the Malays out there.
Guess what,I got 2 bad news at one time.
First,the sick room duty peoples do not dare to duty anymore because of this[the girl was sent to the sick room to clam down and they asked the Ustad to do some praying at the SICK ROOM!
Second,someone told me that the same girl got hysteria AGAIN this morning.
So,what now?Of course is continue my life and keep on preying that it would not happen to my beloved friends and myself.To those who duty the sickroom,WATCH OUT and BEWARE.

Got Dumped before?

Got dumped befor anyone?Ha,a few months back there,I was dumped by a close friend.I mean the closest to me and the kind whom I really only trust in my life.Right after she dumped me,then come a normal same club friend became my close friend again.Is this what people called RECYLCE?
Maybe?Who the hell knows about it?The main point is,why everyone wants to dump me?Now that person have to dump me too?Am I such a jerk that everyones want to run away from my life?Damn!The other matter is,how can you expect some one to have back the same feeling they had towards you like before?When some kind of strong feeling is gone,it is gone forever.FOREVER!You will never find it back.I tried to find back the previous feeling I used have toward you but no matter how hard I tried,I just can't get it back!!!
I really hope that you understand why I am avoiding myself away from you.I dont want you to putting more hopes in this relationship.I am sorry but you can not blame me too cause if at first you did not dumped me,all these would not happen...Just let the word remain unsaid and pretend like we never meet each other.Okay?I am really stressed about this.I dont want it anymore.

C.O.W.A.R.D.S

Why you have to be so coward?Hey,it's only the first General Meeting as a pobationary leader and you did not attend and leave me to do all your jobs for you?!You know how tiring it is for 1 person to lead a group of 4 that does not want to give you any respond when you talked to them?Sigh.Only 2 out of 4 are answering me whenever I finish explained and asked whether they understood.>.And the last minute call-up about the marching really scared me.What the *tut*!Last minute then you come and tell us they will be a foot drill pratise.Somemore is after a tirng 'SinCity'[Police VS Criminals] game.Swt-.-'"
The committe meeting had gave out alot of problems.E.g:I heard that we should train and do everything as a body but when someone said she have problem with the speed of a more slow member,then someone did sugested to split the problemED member with the O.K ones.So,who's fault is this?And I don't think that it's unnecessary to let the member to know the cause of some accident.We shoul not just focus on pratical.
Well,these are just my thoughts.Who knows I might be wrong.?

Praying...

Tomorrow is the first day me attending General Meeting as a Pobation Leader.Which means,I'm gona lead a section of peoples with an partner and teach the members First Aid!Hey,I would not be so freak out if it is Foot Drill but I will freak out if it is FIrst Aid cause I can hardly do a right reef knot[simplest thing in First Aid].But then the others like folding a triangular bandages,types of burn,treatment for external burn,neck sling,elevation sling and arm slings are O.K.But then treatment for external burn,factors of burn would be harder for me...
Damn,I better start practising my reef knot and burns.If not,Png Ning will kill be cause I've been hit by her because of a simple ref knot during the briefing this afternoon.='{
I do not want to get another hit AGAIN!$^&%*#

New lesson

A new lesson had been learnt by me this few days.I just realised that the person who cared for me the most when I need some other people to care,is the most true kind of care.I found out I was alone a few months back but throughout the whole time untill this few days,there is someone who really cared for me!She cared alot of me that I barely realised about it.I kept talking about hoping some other people to care for me.I'm very sorry.Please forgive me.For God's sake at least.I got a terrible blessing for not realising you.God expanded our relationship and He's gonna take you away from me.I just wish that we will have a day of time to spend our time together.No matter through SMS or MSN or even go out to hang around.I just hope that we can do something that will make both of us never forget each other together.
I really hope that my only wish for now will come true.At least for a replacement for the 'gift' you owed me.Please.

My heart,has sank to the bottom of the sea

My tears' running out from my eyes,my eyes' reddish and watery.WHY?!Because,the one and only person who always support me when I needed a person to be with,has D.U.M.P me!xxx ain't want me anymore.You're the last person who support me in the past,now...everything changed.You don't care,bother and love me anymore.I'm hurt...always hurt.You think that me and the other person had recover than I would be OK?No,it turn up to be worse.Now then I realised that I was too rely on you that you become the person who care for me the most!You were the person who loved me the most and you will suport me no matter what.
Why you have to be so bad and devil that you dump me?Why?WHY?Is it because you hate me?Is it because I was too jealous?Is it because I bothered you?Am I such an abhorrent person?If you think I was giving you too much preassure,why don't you tell me yourself?You don't have to be like this.Things would be better if we just sit down and talk.Don't you think so?
Now I'm hopeless and I need someone to support me but I have no one to.I can only PEEP at you,listen your voice secretly and think about you till my mind explode.I tried not to look at you in school but I just can't help myself.The more I don't see you,the more I miss you.I tried to forget you by hating you but I can't.The more I hate you,the more I hate myself.The more I see you and someone else,the more I'm sad.The more I miss you,the more I will miss you.I just hope that time can rush everything away from my mind and give back me my smile,my happiness and my everything.You got everything of mine away when you left me.If you just come back,then I'll smile,I'll be happy everyday.
I'm now listenng to 'wo men zen me le' by S.H.E[new song].This song really describe absolutely.It had been play again and again since 10.04p.m.I really don't know what happened between us.



``I need more plaster

p/s:I'm not deeply in love with some boy.It's just a L.O.V.E to a very unique and special friend.

Thanks

I wana thank Julie and Lachelle for giving me this cool Jack of NBC.You guys bought me a very special present and I love it!I damn love it!!!You guys had added 1 collection of mine.[i collects NBC stuff]

Jack's dancing

Pretending you're dead>?

cool!I can't stop loving it.

Once again,thanks.

p/s:laopo ar,don't so easilt cheat my people again next time k?I'm sorry cause I lied to you is on the 21st of July[which is tomorrow,hiak hiak]This' my 'earliest' present hor?haha

I'm dead

I'm alone in the darkness,searching for light,
I'm battling with devil,hoping an Angel would save me,
I'm sobbing in the middle of the night,my heart broke into pieces,
I'm walking in a big city,which full of strangers,
I'm shouting out loud,but no one heard me,
I'm struggling between live and death,but no one's there to save me,
In the end,I'm lieing on the bad alone,waiting an Angel to take me to the beautiful heaven.
Before I die,my tears,bloods and my little broken heart is the only things I got,
Now,I get everythg I wanted!
You!You're everything!
Everything that I wanted,
You're meant to be,suppose to be,
But we lost it,
All the memories so close to me,
Just fade away,
All this time you're pretending,
SO MUCH FOR MY HAPPY ENDING!
You broke my heart,
You made my sob,
You pissed me off,
I'll make you regret,
I'll make you pay for everything you got from me!

Things to do before I die

There are many things to do before I die.There are some logical but some are not.

1.Have a very own walkman phone or phone includes MP3,camera
2.1 of the committe board in RCYU#6[some day later]
3.Travel around the world
4.Highlight my hair
5.Visit and shopping at TAIWAN!
6.Perfect person.[though no one is perfect]
7.Smart
8.Have my own PC or laptop
9.Escape from my 'pissed off' life like now
10.Having a penthouse
11.Be a hair designer or techician
12.Stop being such a FAILURE!Prove to the world 'I CAN'!

These are the basic things I wana do before I die.Maybe will somemore in the future...Who knows?

What I usually do at school...

Curious about what a form 2 student like me usually do at school?Haha.Well,other than talk and talk and talk in class uring teacher teaching,I also love hanging arounf the school compound.My favourite place is the Canteen of course!Haha.Why?Cause,I'll meet alot of friends there.Then'll sit down and start chatting non-stop.
What I usually do:

Outside the class...

See,this is what I mean.
Other than canteen,I love sick room too.

Haha.Those always caught me at sick room,help me keep this secret oh.

In the class...

My all-time favourite,Crayon Shin Chan!I love to draw it because it's easy to draw!Wahahaha

Nice?

This is the special version I create myself.Hope it fits.
Other than drawing,I also love to write craps.Such as:
My list of what to do before I die

And some stupid 'poem'

The drawing look like this:[it sucks]


So,what you guys think about my attitude at school?

Parenting...

Damn it!Life as a pre-teen with lots of preassure under parents'stupid nagS,WON'T SURVIVE Okay?!
Guess what,once you open your eyes from your sweet sweet dream,the first thing you heard is:"You know what the time is it now?!Yet you sleeping on the bed!You betta wake up or else...".Then when you are enjoy 'brushing teeths' then they still keep on nagging seems that they are chatting with a deaf[cause I used to keep quiet].If you can't stand it anymore,you sure will shout or bang the door right?And at the moment they will say:"*tut*,you dare to bang the door?!You grow very big liao hor?Like an adult liao hor??".Hey,did you guys ever think of what kind of teen are they when they're in our age.Sigh.I can't believe that they are a nerd lar duh.
Hmm,you guys[parents out there!],you guys think that teenagers or pre-teens don't have preassure at all?Hell no!We got more preassure than you people!We,if we keep quiet when you guys nag,we'll hate you in heart.slowly slwoly we'll hate you alot!So,isn't it better that we don't hate you but we scream out or shout out our preassure?Please,I really hope that one day when I grow up,get married and have some childs[MAYBE...],I don't wana get hurt by my own kids.
Sigh,maybe my attitude is too damn bad that everyone doesn't seems to care about me.I'm now so alone in a blank and big city.I wana cry out loud,but I can't do so cause nomatter how much i cried,there's still no one will care about me!

B.I.T.C.H

You bloody Bitch!$#%*&^`Who the hell you think you are?!My parents or what?Even so,you can't control me okay?Why you have to be so damn bossy and hurt people so deeply?Sometimes when people are asking you somthing,if you don't know or not sure,just say:"I don't know".You don't have to give stupid answers.
Don't make yourself think that you're the number 1 on Earth.you're NOT.Get it?You're the worst among the others and yet you told me xxxx was the worst.I found out that somebody's attitude is better than you!You think you are good with the other person that can benefits you then you will be strong,I ensure you a 'NO'!!!I mean 'HELL NO!'
So,if you know who you are,then just piss off.
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Hmm,there something I've been wondering when someone told me that 'nobody' is actually perfect because 'nobody is perfect'.Now,I don't know I wana be 'nobody' or 'somebody'.Urgghh.

Damn It

Damn it!!!What the hell had happened to me recently?I felt so pissed off.No one seems to care about me,no one seems to bother me much and some people just like to nag and yell at me even I just woke up in the morning?!fucking hell lar
On the other hand,I think I would be happy for 24 hours starts on 12A.M. later cause my sweet fourteen coming.YAY!My first birthday wish is ,BE HAPPY EVERYDAY[which I'm not very...at the moment]