Thinking thinking and thinking...

Thinking thinking and thinking...Oh dear,I've been thinking the same stupid question for the whole day starting 2p.m.Ok,it sounds very serious problem huh?Will it be one of the stupid facts in my History book which I'm half mad after studying it(got History exam on this Friday ma) or is it a very complicated formula for my Maths exam tomoorow on liner equation?Circles?Solid geometry?Or will it be one of the science facts 'chicken wing' taught me?No...No...No...All no!

It's just a few simple question.

• Am I going to survive for the rest of my life?


• Can I stop relying on other people for helping me out with my studies,problems and stuff?


• What am I going to do after all my loved ones leave me in these few months?


• When will my wound in my heart be cure after they left me?


• Why I so damn sad after I heard a news about their future?(where are they going to...)


• Is someone angry with me on what I've did to her last few months?

Everything is just resolved by a big question mark like this:

I'm really tired and stressed now.Can all these just stop for a moment in my mind?!

I really hope that sometimes I can just go to Heaven be at God's side looking at my loves on from up there.Maybe things would be better if it's so.BUT there's a long journey ahead.