Got Dumped before?

Got dumped befor anyone?Ha,a few months back there,I was dumped by a close friend.I mean the closest to me and the kind whom I really only trust in my life.Right after she dumped me,then come a normal same club friend became my close friend again.Is this what people called RECYLCE?
Maybe?Who the hell knows about it?The main point is,why everyone wants to dump me?Now that person have to dump me too?Am I such a jerk that everyones want to run away from my life?Damn!The other matter is,how can you expect some one to have back the same feeling they had towards you like before?When some kind of strong feeling is gone,it is gone forever.FOREVER!You will never find it back.I tried to find back the previous feeling I used have toward you but no matter how hard I tried,I just can't get it back!!!
I really hope that you understand why I am avoiding myself away from you.I dont want you to putting more hopes in this relationship.I am sorry but you can not blame me too cause if at first you did not dumped me,all these would not happen...Just let the word remain unsaid and pretend like we never meet each other.Okay?I am really stressed about this.I dont want it anymore.

C.O.W.A.R.D.S

Why you have to be so coward?Hey,it's only the first General Meeting as a pobationary leader and you did not attend and leave me to do all your jobs for you?!You know how tiring it is for 1 person to lead a group of 4 that does not want to give you any respond when you talked to them?Sigh.Only 2 out of 4 are answering me whenever I finish explained and asked whether they understood.>.And the last minute call-up about the marching really scared me.What the *tut*!Last minute then you come and tell us they will be a foot drill pratise.Somemore is after a tirng 'SinCity'[Police VS Criminals] game.Swt-.-'"
The committe meeting had gave out alot of problems.E.g:I heard that we should train and do everything as a body but when someone said she have problem with the speed of a more slow member,then someone did sugested to split the problemED member with the O.K ones.So,who's fault is this?And I don't think that it's unnecessary to let the member to know the cause of some accident.We shoul not just focus on pratical.
Well,these are just my thoughts.Who knows I might be wrong.?

Praying...

Tomorrow is the first day me attending General Meeting as a Pobation Leader.Which means,I'm gona lead a section of peoples with an partner and teach the members First Aid!Hey,I would not be so freak out if it is Foot Drill but I will freak out if it is FIrst Aid cause I can hardly do a right reef knot[simplest thing in First Aid].But then the others like folding a triangular bandages,types of burn,treatment for external burn,neck sling,elevation sling and arm slings are O.K.But then treatment for external burn,factors of burn would be harder for me...
Damn,I better start practising my reef knot and burns.If not,Png Ning will kill be cause I've been hit by her because of a simple ref knot during the briefing this afternoon.='{
I do not want to get another hit AGAIN!$^&%*#

New lesson

A new lesson had been learnt by me this few days.I just realised that the person who cared for me the most when I need some other people to care,is the most true kind of care.I found out I was alone a few months back but throughout the whole time untill this few days,there is someone who really cared for me!She cared alot of me that I barely realised about it.I kept talking about hoping some other people to care for me.I'm very sorry.Please forgive me.For God's sake at least.I got a terrible blessing for not realising you.God expanded our relationship and He's gonna take you away from me.I just wish that we will have a day of time to spend our time together.No matter through SMS or MSN or even go out to hang around.I just hope that we can do something that will make both of us never forget each other together.
I really hope that my only wish for now will come true.At least for a replacement for the 'gift' you owed me.Please.

Blood Donors Award Certificate[public duty]

Woke up really early this morning for a public duty at MBKS building.Geesh,asked us to go on 7.30a.m...but when I reach there and saw the worker hang up the banner,it says:"Time:9.00a.m."...The rest and I was busy yawning while waiting the peoples from HQ to come.First,I saw Tze Hui and Jia Juin coming together,then Fook Ann,Wei Jin and Paul[both VADs] coming together then I was disappointed cause Png Ning told me there wold be 6 peoples going and now it's already 6.But miracle do happen,I saw Jocelynn Chong's car from far away then I started to become high.Not long later,Png Ning came!Yay!Finally there were some girls to acompany me!
Guess what,our unit's job is to sit on the chair on the registration counter and wait for the people to register.Ha!We were so damn lucky because the representive from Kuching High and St. Theresa have to walk here and there to guide the peoples to their sits.Muahaha.
I think me and Jocelynn was toking non-stop during the whole duty.At first was quite cold because it was still early in the morning.I am incharge of the 40 pints peoples.Tell you guys ar,it's so easy.You just have to do 3 things.
1``Ask them to write their contact number
2``Ask them to sign
3``Ask them to write the date

After the registration was over around 9.30a.m,we started to packed those foods and drinks into packets.It was easy,just 3 steps.
1``Put in 2 'Solivite' drink
2``Put in a cane of 'Malta'
3``Put in a piece of cake
And we keep on packing and packing and packing then finally,finish lo.After that,we all started being crazy.We talked alot!We talked about Laura Yap and Fook Ann's thinggy,about our school teachers and many more la.Then me and Jocelynn talked about our ERT thinggy then Png Ning heard.
Png Ning:"Har?!EILEEN CHIN!You get ERT ar?"
Me:"Ha!Unbelievable lerh?"
Png Ning:"Yeah"
Jocelynn:"Nolah,we draw the choice ourself one.We can't choose it"
Png Ning:"No wonder la,Haha"

Then we stop chatting for a while when people come and get their packet of food and drinks around 11a.m.Hmm,when all of the peoples finish taking their food,then we get everything into the ambulance and prepare to bring it back to the HQ.I thought that we will be going straight to HQ but we got buffet to eat ar!Wakakaka.Food~I have not eat since morning la duh.Sigh.

The fuuniest thing is,Jocelynn,me,Png Ning and Tze Hui keep on talking during the lunch.We talk about the 'sheeps',the 'sheeperd' and the 'handsome'.Hahaz.We keep on laughing when we eat,we keep on talking when we eat,we also keep on playing when we eat.I know it was a bad habit of eating but 'SO'?Once in a while ma.

When we were going to the HQ,Png Ning and me squeeze into Miss Rose's 'tortoise car' so that Jocelynn can get what she 'want'.But she turn Png Ning and me down,she go to the other car instead of going into the car we wished she will go.I slept in the car...zzZZzzz

When we reached HQ,and I go down the car by hugging a big hamper[the remainder of the lucky draw].Tze Hui saw it and say'
Tze Hui:"Wa,EILEEN CHIN!So heng ar,won a hamper somemore"
ME:"Yeahlor,Png Ning got 1 too"
Tze Hui:"Eee,inside th car still got,I also want"
Jocelynn:"I got the best lar,I got the throphy ar"

Hahaz,then we place all the reamainder of the packed foods and drinks,newspapers,table clothes,table,chairs,files and many more into the HQ.We talked alot too when we do stuff inside the HQ.Haiz,I think we are the most talkertive youth unit in Kuching branch.

It has been a happy day cause we all enjoyed our duty alot.No complains,no excuses and no nagging,too.Wish that every public duty would be as fun as this.^^

My heart,has sank to the bottom of the sea

My tears' running out from my eyes,my eyes' reddish and watery.WHY?!Because,the one and only person who always support me when I needed a person to be with,has D.U.M.P me!xxx ain't want me anymore.You're the last person who support me in the past,now...everything changed.You don't care,bother and love me anymore.I'm hurt...always hurt.You think that me and the other person had recover than I would be OK?No,it turn up to be worse.Now then I realised that I was too rely on you that you become the person who care for me the most!You were the person who loved me the most and you will suport me no matter what.
Why you have to be so bad and devil that you dump me?Why?WHY?Is it because you hate me?Is it because I was too jealous?Is it because I bothered you?Am I such an abhorrent person?If you think I was giving you too much preassure,why don't you tell me yourself?You don't have to be like this.Things would be better if we just sit down and talk.Don't you think so?
Now I'm hopeless and I need someone to support me but I have no one to.I can only PEEP at you,listen your voice secretly and think about you till my mind explode.I tried not to look at you in school but I just can't help myself.The more I don't see you,the more I miss you.I tried to forget you by hating you but I can't.The more I hate you,the more I hate myself.The more I see you and someone else,the more I'm sad.The more I miss you,the more I will miss you.I just hope that time can rush everything away from my mind and give back me my smile,my happiness and my everything.You got everything of mine away when you left me.If you just come back,then I'll smile,I'll be happy everyday.
I'm now listenng to 'wo men zen me le' by S.H.E[new song].This song really describe absolutely.It had been play again and again since 10.04p.m.I really don't know what happened between us.



``I need more plaster

p/s:I'm not deeply in love with some boy.It's just a L.O.V.E to a very unique and special friend.

Thanks

I wana thank Julie and Lachelle for giving me this cool Jack of NBC.You guys bought me a very special present and I love it!I damn love it!!!You guys had added 1 collection of mine.[i collects NBC stuff]

Jack's dancing

Pretending you're dead>?

cool!I can't stop loving it.

Once again,thanks.

p/s:laopo ar,don't so easilt cheat my people again next time k?I'm sorry cause I lied to you is on the 21st of July[which is tomorrow,hiak hiak]This' my 'earliest' present hor?haha

I'm dead

I'm alone in the darkness,searching for light,
I'm battling with devil,hoping an Angel would save me,
I'm sobbing in the middle of the night,my heart broke into pieces,
I'm walking in a big city,which full of strangers,
I'm shouting out loud,but no one heard me,
I'm struggling between live and death,but no one's there to save me,
In the end,I'm lieing on the bad alone,waiting an Angel to take me to the beautiful heaven.
Before I die,my tears,bloods and my little broken heart is the only things I got,
Now,I get everythg I wanted!
You!You're everything!
Everything that I wanted,
You're meant to be,suppose to be,
But we lost it,
All the memories so close to me,
Just fade away,
All this time you're pretending,
SO MUCH FOR MY HAPPY ENDING!
You broke my heart,
You made my sob,
You pissed me off,
I'll make you regret,
I'll make you pay for everything you got from me!

Things to do before I die

There are many things to do before I die.There are some logical but some are not.

1.Have a very own walkman phone or phone includes MP3,camera
2.1 of the committe board in RCYU#6[some day later]
3.Travel around the world
4.Highlight my hair
5.Visit and shopping at TAIWAN!
6.Perfect person.[though no one is perfect]
7.Smart
8.Have my own PC or laptop
9.Escape from my 'pissed off' life like now
10.Having a penthouse
11.Be a hair designer or techician
12.Stop being such a FAILURE!Prove to the world 'I CAN'!

These are the basic things I wana do before I die.Maybe will somemore in the future...Who knows?

What I usually do at school...

Curious about what a form 2 student like me usually do at school?Haha.Well,other than talk and talk and talk in class uring teacher teaching,I also love hanging arounf the school compound.My favourite place is the Canteen of course!Haha.Why?Cause,I'll meet alot of friends there.Then'll sit down and start chatting non-stop.
What I usually do:

Outside the class...

See,this is what I mean.
Other than canteen,I love sick room too.

Haha.Those always caught me at sick room,help me keep this secret oh.

In the class...

My all-time favourite,Crayon Shin Chan!I love to draw it because it's easy to draw!Wahahaha

Nice?

This is the special version I create myself.Hope it fits.
Other than drawing,I also love to write craps.Such as:
My list of what to do before I die

And some stupid 'poem'

The drawing look like this:[it sucks]


So,what you guys think about my attitude at school?

Parenting...

Damn it!Life as a pre-teen with lots of preassure under parents'stupid nagS,WON'T SURVIVE Okay?!
Guess what,once you open your eyes from your sweet sweet dream,the first thing you heard is:"You know what the time is it now?!Yet you sleeping on the bed!You betta wake up or else...".Then when you are enjoy 'brushing teeths' then they still keep on nagging seems that they are chatting with a deaf[cause I used to keep quiet].If you can't stand it anymore,you sure will shout or bang the door right?And at the moment they will say:"*tut*,you dare to bang the door?!You grow very big liao hor?Like an adult liao hor??".Hey,did you guys ever think of what kind of teen are they when they're in our age.Sigh.I can't believe that they are a nerd lar duh.
Hmm,you guys[parents out there!],you guys think that teenagers or pre-teens don't have preassure at all?Hell no!We got more preassure than you people!We,if we keep quiet when you guys nag,we'll hate you in heart.slowly slwoly we'll hate you alot!So,isn't it better that we don't hate you but we scream out or shout out our preassure?Please,I really hope that one day when I grow up,get married and have some childs[MAYBE...],I don't wana get hurt by my own kids.
Sigh,maybe my attitude is too damn bad that everyone doesn't seems to care about me.I'm now so alone in a blank and big city.I wana cry out loud,but I can't do so cause nomatter how much i cried,there's still no one will care about me!

B.I.T.C.H

You bloody Bitch!$#%*&^`Who the hell you think you are?!My parents or what?Even so,you can't control me okay?Why you have to be so damn bossy and hurt people so deeply?Sometimes when people are asking you somthing,if you don't know or not sure,just say:"I don't know".You don't have to give stupid answers.
Don't make yourself think that you're the number 1 on Earth.you're NOT.Get it?You're the worst among the others and yet you told me xxxx was the worst.I found out that somebody's attitude is better than you!You think you are good with the other person that can benefits you then you will be strong,I ensure you a 'NO'!!!I mean 'HELL NO!'
So,if you know who you are,then just piss off.
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Hmm,there something I've been wondering when someone told me that 'nobody' is actually perfect because 'nobody is perfect'.Now,I don't know I wana be 'nobody' or 'somebody'.Urgghh.

Prezzies~!!!@$^%&^*(

Wakakaka,I supposed to post this blog on Wednesday nite but I can't cause I'm tooooo lazy to do so.So,once I got back from this morning Inter-Unit,Kuching Chapter Footdrill Competition which held in my school,SMK GREEN ROAD...[it's totally sucks cause our school din't even win any of the category,all are won by SMK KUCHING HIGH>.<]
Cut it off.Here,some pictures for my birthday present for my 14th birthday.Old lu...
My first present for the day,

A NBC[Nightmare Before Christmas]'s pillow from Shirlyn + Cat.

Yay,the first present that I received when it's wrapped with present paper for this year!!!

It's a photo frame,cute ones from my second wife---Jocelynn Tian

A pack-ed thinggy from Sin Kiat + Adrianne + Sze Yee

I thought it was a panda but it turn up to be THE-DOG.Hahaha

another pillow AGAIN from Marilyn.=)
And finally,I swear I never espect to receive from---Deborah!

I love this thing!It will say:"I LOVE YOU" once you press it.But too bad I can onli press it once a day cause...Don't wana tell you=P


Mel got me a cake but then I din't take the picture for it cause I'm not allow to bring cameras to school and I din't espect about it.

I really enjoyed my sweet fourteen.Haha.Thanks to those who sent me messages,gave me so many prezzies and eventually EVERYONE.

Damn It

Damn it!!!What the hell had happened to me recently?I felt so pissed off.No one seems to care about me,no one seems to bother me much and some people just like to nag and yell at me even I just woke up in the morning?!fucking hell lar
On the other hand,I think I would be happy for 24 hours starts on 12A.M. later cause my sweet fourteen coming.YAY!My first birthday wish is ,BE HAPPY EVERYDAY[which I'm not very...at the moment]

Miracle?

It's such a great miracle that I knew about the result for Probationary Leaders 08/09 that I was damn worried about.Guess what?My name is on the list of 12!Yeeeha~!
All of us were so happy that we keep on congrating each other.I guess it will be very fun working with the other 11.Aleluya,thanks God.

see,it's my name!Eileen Chin!!!

Hmm,anyone knows where can I get a cute stuff like this?

Please tell me if you know,I like it very much and I want to get a few more.^^

It's my lilttle cute piggy show time!
Aww,isn't it look cute??

Miri School Girl Fight

Why the buliers keep on saying:"ni you mei you jiang?!","ni dao di you mei you jiang?!"
Then the victim will keep on saying the same thing:"mei you."
Then the guys will say:"gou liao la,gou liao..."

They keep on repeating these few lines as if these are their onli script.Sighz

Gob bless to the victim and don't ever be too busybody!!!

S.H.E Forever new song + best collections album

S.H.E
S.H.E's new album is coming soon.I've downloaded two of the new song,Ring Ring Ring
and chu dian.Wakaka.It's nice.^^
Other new songs are Goodbye My Love,zhi teng hua,wo men ze me le and chu dian.Looking forward for their new album.
Below are all the songs that will be treasure in this album.

CD
01.chu dian
02.Ring Ring Ring
03.wo men ze me le
04.zhi teng hua
05.Goodbye My Love
06.Super Star
07.tian hui
08.du chang qing ge
09.hua dou kai hao le
10.I.O.I.O
11.hou niao
12.bu xiang zhang da
13.bo si mao
14.ta hai shi bu dong
15.xing guang
16.yi yan wang nian
17.yue gui nu shen
18.tong kuai

DVD
01.chu dian MV
02.Ring Ring Ring MV
03.SUPER STAR MV
04.bo si mao MV
05.wo ai nia MV
06.xing gunag MV
07.bu xiang zhang da MV
08.SUPER MODEL dancing lesson


S.H.E FOREVER new song + best collections album!

Birthday Wish

Haiz,I really wana have a brand new Sony Ericsson Walkman Phones for my birthday present to represent my old-fashioned Nokia 3120.
Hmm,the phone that I'm aiming is either one of the W series Sony Ericsson Walkman Phones.
Target no.1>>W810i

[front view]

[back view]
Target no.2>>W550i

[front view]

[back view]
Traget no.3>>W900i


[front view]

[back view]
target no.4>>W850i(coming soon)



[front view]

[back view]

Hmm,it might be hard to get those phones because their price are damn expensive.I wana get a new walkman phone is not showing off lar.It's because I need camera and a place which can replace my stupid MP3 which can't work anymore.If can't get a brand new handphone,then at least buy me a Sony Walkman E00 Style MP3 players.You just have to charge 3 minutes and it can stand for 3 hours!!!And it's damn cheap.512KB are only RM299,1GB for RM449 and 2GB for RM599.What the...I want it!!!There are available in 5 colours!Black,Violet,Pink,Blue and Green.Pink,Blue and Green only available for 1GB.Black and Violet are available in for 512MB,1GB and 2GB.

Black*Dark Angel

violet*Cool Kitty

Pink*Cute Candy

Green*Commando

Blue*Streetwizer

~COLOUR'UP YOUR STYLE~
Hmm,I think I shouldn't wish for more again.just wishes either 1 of them can come to me!

First day of July

Today is the 1st of July.A good beginning.Hmm,I can't wait for 10 days more to pass.Grrr.I will be very happy on 12th.Wakakakaka.MAYBE?...sighz.Looking forward to it!

Interview for PLs for 2008/2009?!

Last nigth around 8 something,Kay signed in to MSN and msg me:"Good Luck for tomorrow".At the moment,i was like:Wadda?!Good luck for wad?!!
After that then i know it's an interview onthis morning.It was so hopeless of me to not knowing this kind of news.What's wrong with me?
Then I went to school after the senior's tips.Nah,the tips was useful but the lack on confidence of myself made me nervous.When I entered the room,there were 7 interviewers.Start from my right,Jia Jun,Png Ning,Tze Hui,Fook Ann,Wen Hann,Pei Qun and Siao Fen.The first thing they asked me to do is,INTRODUCE myself.I just say my name,my age and how long have I been in RCYU#6.I keep reminding my self,NO CRAPS!!!
After that,Jia Jun started to ask me:"are you good in communicating with the others?"I was so nervous and doubting about myself throughout the whole interview.I answered:"depends on what kind of person."{I know it's stupid to be forward but my mind was thinking...].Png Ning asked what have I learned from the unit and i answered dicipline my self and NOT AFRAID OF THE WEATHER which sounds very FUNNY.HAha.Tze Hui asked:"do you find any problem in the unit?" and I said:"yea".She asked:"what is the problem?".I said that the numbers of members are increasing...I know it's not the unit problem lar but I really don't know what to say wad.
Fook Ann said that it's true that I've been with RCYU#6 for about 1 and a year half.He appreciate my commitment.The one I was most afraid of is Fook Ann but I don't know why I like his question.He asked what's my weakness.I told him my weakness are"My english are very low standard"(I wana say sucks but he said PROPER language so better don't take the risk,haha).After Fook Ann is Wen Hann.He asked:"do you think that communication are important?"Certainly yes la.He asked"WHY?".I answered,:"If the leader and member can't communicate well,the sebsection/unit will have a lot of problems."[It's an easy question,anyway]
Pei Qun asked:"If there's a member who have problem of diferenciate left and right during footdrill,but the other member have passed that stgae and ready to go to the harder ones.What would I do.I always remembered what Fook Ann said.So i answered:"I will continue to teach the member who have problem together with others until he knows what to do.She asked:"what if the others complain?".I just say:"No matter what we do,we just have to do it together as a team!"I knew Fook Ann was very satiesfied with the answer.Muahahaha.The last one was Siao Fen.I can hardly hear what she said.She ask me whether I have confident in myself?I said:"NO".Why?"Cause I can't answer most of the questions correctly..."
Before I went out the room,Png Ning told me that:"If you can't answer all our questions,it doesn't mean that you're lousy."It comforts me alot.!When it comes to the comment part.My tears nearly drop down of what Fook Ann comment on me.He said I know the concept of leaderhsip and he LIKE the way i answered Pei Qun's question.Tze Hui asked me to improved my weakness and Png Ning and Wen Hann asked me to communicate more with the others.Pei Qun said that I'm lack of confidence and patient.Jia Jun and Siao Fen have no comment.
I thanked God for letting Kay to inform me about this and I wana thank the seniors who gave me alot of tips.Thanks the committe board for giving me this chance.